Tuesday, April 3, 2018


This post is for GOD'S 'Suitcase Women' - those gals who carry their wares from place to place, working to build their businesses, raise their families and for some, to share the love and glory of the gospel of Jesus Christ.  I have been wondering for years who you are and where you girls have been!  I saw you coming together a long time ago and it was astounding!  You can read about it in a bit, but first, please indulge me as I share some background…

Recently in my morning time with Him, Holy took me to the 42nd and 43rd chapters of Isaiah.   He reminded me again - as He has often done - that the former things are completed and He is doing a new thing.  I could feel His delight in showing me the words on those pages and the promises He made to His children. He's doing a new thing.  

And here is a 'new thing' He is doing now:  He's bringing The Big Pink Tent Revival (Heather's business/ministry) and Heart Peace Productions (my business/ministry) together to provide a platform for women business owners to have a place where their businesses - large and small, established and new - can showcase their God-given gifts and talents and their businesses in a setting where the ministry of Holy Spirit is freely available to all who will come. With business showcases, fashion shows, music and ministry, it will be different than the usual Expos out there.  It is an opportunity for women to encourage, teach and learn from other women who are business owners, make new friends, expand their customer bases and have fun as well as sell their wares!

Some of you have come from nurturing backgrounds and have been successful in business for quite a while now.  You've learned the ropes and know what you need to do to keep your business alive and thriving.  Many of you have lived in difficult circumstances, some in poverty at some point, some in abuse and rejection as well.  Some of you are struggling to get your businesses going, wondering what it all looks like and if you'll be able to succeed.  Well, if any of those descriptions describe you even a little bit, please read on!

Thirty years ago, The LORD gave me a dream about working out in a field and waiting to be called to go on stage where a telethon was taking place in a huge auditorium.  When my time came to be there, I was surprised to find that the audience was already there, waiting for me to show up.  The dream is more detailed, but that is enough for now.  Until then, however, I was continuing to labor in the field...  (Have you been out there in a 'field' of some sort for a while now, continuing to work but still...waiting for something? And who or what is waiting for you to show up?)

Fast forward several years.  In another dream people were waiting for me to show up, just as they had been in the previous dream in 1988.  This time, though, I was busy trying to do things for my family and laboring to get domestic chores done at home.  I hadn't taken a shower yet and the time was already upon me to be on that stage...  (Have you been taking care of many things, just trying to get everything done but not getting to that 'thing' you feel in your heart that you've been designed to do?  Have you been neglecting the very thing that needs to be done so you can get on with what you're called to do?)

In 2002 I saw a vision. I was standing in a large arena, packed with people and the things that had taken place on the stage were finished.  After giving an altar call, people were coming to the front to give their lives to Yeshua/Jesus Christ.  As they came forward, they threw their addictions, sins, drugs, etc., into the huge trash barrels on either side of the stage.  The vision ended, but two weeks later the Lord confirmed the truth of the vision to me when a young member of the church where I was pastor made the decision to come out of a very destructive habit.  As she presented me with her 'paraphernalia' renounced her sin and asked to be baptized, the LORD immediately put that earlier vision of the arena in front of me again and said, "This is to prove to you that I'm going to do what I told you I would do. This is just the beginning."  (Do you believe GOD has given you a vision or dream in your heart - a longing for something else - that hasn't happened yet and you're wondering if it will ever become a reality?  It's not time to give up on it!  It's NEVER time to give up on it!)

Ten years later, I met Heather.  What an incredibly talented, intelligent, lovely, free-spirited ‘go-getter’ woman of GOD she is! There’s no doubt that it was a meeting the LORD planned from the very beginning and I loved her from the start.  Holy Spirit planted her in my heart and she is a beloved spiritual daughter to me.  Not long thereafter, I had another dream.  I'm calling it 'GOD'S Suitcase Women' dream...

In this dream I was standing on another platform, waiting to go on some sort of show that would be broadcast.  I didn't know what I was going to be doing on the show yet had great peace about being there.  I was taken to a 'Green Room' to wait until it was time to go on.  Suddenly, women began to pour through the doors, all carrying suitcases and all excitedly talking to each other.  They had come from across the country and were placing their suitcases on tables scattered around the room.  They were opening the cases and taking out the stuff they had in them.  Those cases were packed and the women were very animated and so happy to be there. (Truly, are you one of the 'suitcase women' I saw in that dream?  I hope so!)

I walked to the front of the room and began to sing.  As I did, many of the women turned and listened to the music.  However, I was enthralled by the accompaniment, as it was so perfectly set to the words and melody being sung.  I turned to see who was playing and saw a tall slender male standing in front of a beautiful black grand piano. The lid was raised and he was leaning over and plucking the strings inside of it.  It was so very tender and so incredibly beautiful! Every note, every nuance was perfect!  I was amazed by the beauty and the unusual way He was playing. Without a doubt, that pianist was Holy Spirit.  (He is so good at plucking our heartstrings!  He knows exactly what we need to know, to see, hear, think and do, because He knows the Father's heart and will for each of us!)  

Yeshua/Jesus made it a habit of coming first to the women He created while He was on the earth.  Nothing has changed.  He's still coming to us today - gifting, empowering, redeeming, refreshing, strengthening and restoring each one according to the glorious plan He has in mind for us - asking only that we yield to His love and follow His path for us.

And so here we are today.  Beautiful Woman created by our Glorious GOD, what's in your suitcase?  I’m sure it’s full of many wonderful things!  Your hopes and dreams, your gifts, talents, family, precious memories and tender moments with loved ones, your creativity, your passion for all that you were designed and created to be!  There may be things tucked inside that you’ve kept all to yourself, just hoping and praying that your heart’s desires would really come to life. 

We (Heather and I) believe that the LORD wants to prosper each of His women in the things He's given us to do.  We also believe He is bringing many of His beautiful daughters together to do a 'new thing' in the earth.  He knows what that is and how it will unfold.  Our prayer and desire for you is that you become part of this with us, too.  So, if you feel a tug on your heartstrings to grab those suitcases, bring your business, your passion and joy and come join us!

Heart Peace Productions

Sunday, February 18, 2018


You know...  That last thing He whispered into your spirit...  Did you hear it?  Was it a word of encouragement?  Was it a reminder of something you forgot to do?  Did He draw your attention to someone on the street who needed help?  Did He caution you to slow down or get some much needed rest?  Did He kiss your face with a gentle breeze or warm your skin with the heat from the sunshine?  Did He invite you to spend time with Him in prayer or in the Bible?

Did He talk to you about the times you've done things together - just the two of you?  Did He bring old memories to mind...  Did He let you hear or sense or see something so beautiful it made your heart soar with joy?  Did He lovingly rebuke you for something that He's told you to stop doing...or start doing...because you belong to Him and He has things for you to do that you cannot begin to imagine? Did He tell you again that He loves you - that He's calling you - that He misses time with you?  Did you know that He was talking to YOU?

He said something.  I know He did.  Because He is Who He says He is - and He loves you so much!

How many times have people said that GOD doesn't talk anymore?  That He said all He had to say when Yeshua/Jesus was here...  That is so incredible! That people would think that He's changed like that, when His Word says He never changes!  If He talked before, He's talking still.  If He had stuff to say 2000 years ago, who could possibly believe He ran out of things to say!

I don't know about anyone else, but I need to hear Him all of the time.  I'm not smart enough to navigate this life on my own.  He knows what's coming and what He wants to show me.  He knows what I need to hear from Him in order to be able to finish this race in good form.  Life is sometimes so crazy!  People NEED Him!  I need Him and I know it.  I hope you know you need Him, too.  And that you know He IS talking to you and to all who will listen.  Remember it is written in Psalm 95,

"O come, let us sing joyfully to the LORD;
Let us shout joyfully to the rock of our salvation.
Let us come before His presence with a song of thanksgiving:
Let us shout joyfully to Him with songs.
For the LORD is a great God
And a great King above all gods,
In whose hand are the depths of the earth;
The peaks of the mountains are His also.
The sea is His, for He made it [by His command];
And His hands formed the dry land.
O come, let us worship and bow down,
Let us kneel before the LORD our Maker [in reverent praise and prayer].
For He is our God
And we are the people of His pasture and the sheep of His hand.
Today, if you will hear His voice,
Do not harden your hearts and become spiritually dull as at Meribah [the place of strife],
And as at Massah [the place of testing] in the wilderness,
When your fathers tested Me,
They tried Me, even though they had seen My work[of miracles].
For forty years I was grieved and disgusted with that generation
And I said, 'They are a people who err in their heart,
And they do not acknowledge or regard My ways.'
Therefore I swore [an oath] in My wrath,
They absolutely shall not enter My rest [the land of promise].'"

"Today, if you will hear His voice..." Today.  Listen.  He's talking. Saying some wonderful things, no doubt.  Because He is Who He says He is.  And He is God.  Draw near to Him and He will draw near to you.  Psalm 73:28 says,

"But as for me, it is good for me to draw near to God; I have made the Lord GOD my refuge and placed my trust in Him, that I may tell of all Your works."

And finally, Yeshua/Jesus said to remain in Him.  We need Him.  We need His words to us, written and spoken.  We need to present ourselves before Him to be taught by Him.  There is still so much to learn!  There is still so much to know about Him!  He knows our needs even better than we do.  He wants our love, even as He loves us. 

Pour yourself out, beloved one.  Stop thinking He has nothing to say to you.  If you said 'yes' to Him once upon a time, then say 'yes' again today. You're not your own, you know. You were bought and paid for with a great price - the price of His very life given for you.  Let your appetite for Him GROW! Never be satisfied with where you are in your spiritual walk with Him. Desire more!  Desire to know Him more, love Him better and declare His gospel to others.  You'll need to be able to hear Him to do it the way He wants, when He wants and where He wants you to do it.  You can hear Him if you choose to draw close to Him.  You absolutely without a doubt can hear Him.

Before He left this earth about 2000 years ago, He spoke to His disciples - His followers - and gave them these words of instruction.  They're as relevant for us today as they were then...and they were given to you and to me as well, so I'll close this blog post with them as a reminder to all who read here.  The words are written in John 15:1-17,

"I am the true Vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that continues to bear fruit, He [repeatedly] prunes, so that it will bear more fruit [even richer and finer fruit]. You are already clean because of the word which I have given you [the teachings which I have discussed with you]. Remain in Me, and I [will remain] in you. Just as no branch can bear fruit by itself without remaining in the vine, neither can you [bear fruit, producing evidence of your faith] unless you remain in Me. [b]I am the Vine; you are the branches. The one who remains in Me and I in him bears much fruit, for [otherwise] apart from Me [that is, cut off from vital union with Me] you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in Me, he is thrown out like a [broken off] branch, and withers and dies; and they gather such branches and throw them into the fire, and they are burned. If you remain in Me and My words remain in you [that is, if we are vitally united and My message lives in your heart], ask whatever you wish and it will be done for you. My Father is glorified and honored by this, when you bear much fruit, and prove yourselves to be My [true] disciples. I have loved you just as the Father has loved Me; remain in My love [and do not doubt My love for you]. 10 If you keep My commandments and obey My teaching, you will remain in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and remain in His love. 11 I have told you these things so that My joy and delight may be in you, and that your joy may be made full and complete and overflowing.

12 “This is My commandment, that you [c]love and unselfishly seek the best for one another, just as I have loved you. 13 No one has greater love [nor stronger commitment] than to lay down his own life for his friends. 14 You are my friends if you keep on doing what I command you. 15 I do not call you servants any longer, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you [My] friends, because I have revealed to you everything that I have heard from My Father. 16 You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you and I have appointed and placed and purposefully planted you, so that you would go and bear fruit and keep on bearing, and that your fruit will remain and be lasting, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name [as My representative] He may give to you. 17 This [is what] I command you: that you love and unselfishly seek the best for one another."

Friday, February 9, 2018


His glory reigns across eternity
His beauty far beyond description
Light pours from every part of His Being
Stars innumerable sing in perfect harmony
Blazing with the radiance He assigns
They announce His magnificence
To all of His creation.
Even darkness must bow to His name
To His holiness
To His headship
No voice will remain silent at His coming
All will acknowledge that He alone is King
He alone is LORD
He alone is worthy
Of Glory
Of Honor
Of Praise
Of Worship
Of Obedience
Of all that we are!
How can we know the number of our days?
We are but a vapor
A breath of life given to remain
For a season…
Formed by the One True GOD
To live for His divine purposes
In each one of us.
Oh, Father of Lights
Roll back the heavens!
Thunder with the Voice of Many Waters!
Stay Your hand of judgment
And let Your Gift of Mercy
Hold us close
Draw us nearer to Your throne
Open our eyes to our sin!
Purge our hearts of the unclean
Set us on right paths
And give us hearts of fire for You!
Vicky R Adkins

Friday, January 26, 2018


I heard the LORD say,
"Need Me now."
The message He gave me is below. He said it first thing yesterday morning. As the day wore on, I continued to hear it and pray over it, because He told me it is for many people. He instructed me to put it on here and my blog. I pray for all who will read it to listen for His voice in what is written. Here is the message...
"Too many of My children have become distracted and are in danger of great deception. There are many who have already succumbed to deception because they have not chosen to stay close to Me and require Me as their greatest need. Many believe they are doing fine, that all is well, when indeed it is not. In My written word I warned my children of great turmoil and disasters to come upon the world in the end times, but many have been lulled to sleep and do not believe there is any cause for concern. Therein lies great deception, but there is yet more to come.
Many have put their hope and confidence in political leaders. They believe things will be alright because of a man or woman in office. That is deception. Men and women are still flesh and blood! They are not Me, and yet many trust in the 'arm of flesh' rather than in Me. I counseled My people about that very thing. Do not put your trust in the arm of flesh, for it will fail. Only put your trust in Me.
Many have been led away through the cares of life. Chasing after bigger and better, more and improved, faster and smarter, they allow themselves to be led away from Me through the lusts of the flesh and the pride of life. Patience is not considered a virtue, but rather an inconvenience. Humility is looked upon as weakness and generosity is thought to be wastefulness. Many are incapable of being satisfied because of the paths they choose or have already chosen. They have not put their trust and confidence in Me. All else will fail. All else will pass away.
There is calamity coming upon the earth, but many refuse to see it. They consider My true prophets to be 'doom and gloom' Sayers. They have itching ears to hear those false prophets, pastors and teachers who say 'all is well', because it satisfies the selfish desires to continue to live and do whatever they please. They do not know they need Me. They do not want to hear that I am not going to let things continue down the path they are going.
The world is going to reel to and fro, just as I said. Many will die because of the days ahead. Many have already died - in their sins - taken unaware because My people have not believed My word nor followed My commands. What I do I do because of My love, but many of My people have forgotten or been deceived and they no longer believe that I am also a GOD of justice and I require and will have a holy people. I will not have a people who think they can live and do and say whatever they please, thinking that I will wink at sin. I didn't send My Son to the earth so people could continue to live in sin, unrepentant and staying in rebellion, yet all the while believing that I would turn my head and ignore their evil ways. I will not. I will have a bride who has made herself ready for Me. Read it in Revelation 19:7,8. She will be permitted to wear the wedding garment, which signifies the righteousness, upright, just and godly living, deeds, conduct and right standing with ME. She will be clean because she has shown Me her love by putting her faith in, following and obeying Me.
Many will be offended or scoff at these words. Whether through errors in teaching or pride, many will not receive this word I give today. But those who belong to Me will continually seek My face and inquire of Me for truth. Do not let your candlestick be taken away. I am the Light of the world. I am the Source of your provision, for I am the Creator of all things, the All-Ruler, King of kings and LORD of lords. I am here now, but the days will come when many will seek Me because of the pain and suffering they endure, but will not find Me because they have not forsaken this world and its treasures in search of Me, thinking that they could put off or ignore - or even laugh in the face of GOD - and that I would not see or hear. They have lusted after many things. The days of trouble that are coming will be greater than many have imagined and they will come suddenly. But those who have drawn close to Me and who require Me for their every need will hide in Me, for they hear even now the warning voice of My Spirit that time is coming to a close. They hear and see the sounds of greater war on the horizon as the enemy, Satan and his minions continue to divide, lure and draw away many people through deception, playing on the unrepentant and proud souls of mankind.
Do not be afraid of what is coming. This is not a message of fear. It is a message and a call to repentance and faithfulness to Me. It is a reminder that deception has entered the world in greater measure than ever before and it will continue to increase until many fall away from Me. Don't be caught in the deceptions! Ask Me to open your eyes spiritually. Draw close to Me and listen. Stop chasing after the things of the world and spend time with Me, studying, praying, listening, obeying, fasting and worship Me with all of your heart. Don't just read about and know the scriptures, rather live the commands I gave you. Don't just let your head be filled with the knowledge of what is contained in the Bible. Walk beside Me in this world, serving Me by doing what I commanded.
Go into the world, but don't be part of it. Go into it to bring people out of the snares and lusts found in it. See your great need and know that you can do nothing good without Me. You cannot survive without Me. You cannot even breathe without Me. Your heart will not beat without Me. Don't be over-confident in your ability to succeed without Me, for even the heavens and earth will one day be destroyed and replaced. Require Me with all of your heart. Require Me in every circumstance, through every word and deed. See that you are in great need of Me. Need Me now. Need Me now.
I will not fail you and I call you to come back to Me fully. Return to Me, your first Love and stay here. I will care for you and protect you. There will be hard things yet ahead for you to endure, but your peace will be found in Me as you draw close, surrendered to Me and My love for you. Trust My wisdom, child. Know that I am able to do all things that need to be done. I am your Maker and I love you. Again I say to you, need Me now."

Sunday, January 21, 2018

Moving Forward

Beloved Readers,

Sometimes the everyday events of life can feel like they are preventing us from moving forward into the call or work the LORD has for us to do.  It can seem as though the regular stuff is taking up all of our time - keeping us just a breath away from doing the thing GOD intended for our lives.   Frustration can begin to set in and before we know it, discouragement is close on its heels, holding us captive and frozen into inactivity.  I know what that feels like.  It's happened to me so many times in my life!

But today the word stirring in my heart is to encourage us to remember the verses in Proverbs 3:5,6. Trust in the LORD with all your heart!  Lean not on your own understanding!  In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He WILL direct your paths!  (Emphasis and punctuation mine) 

The verses don't say to trust Him sometimes, or just a little bit.  They don't say to trust Him when things are good and life is easy.  They don't tell us to trust Him when we are getting our way or people are patting us on the back for the great job we're doing.  They say - to me, anyway - trust Him when it looks like things aren't going anywhere...like everything is at a standstill...like life is passing you by as you go throughout each day, doing the things that seem so mundane or of little value. Trust Him when it looks like you're just getting older and that 'thing' that you thought He wanted you to do - that vision or heart desire that's lived in the hidden recesses of your very soul - are never going to come to life.  Trust Him when it seems that you're just spinning your wheels...going around and around and around in circles...but not getting anywhere significant!

And in the trusting, acknowledge Him.  He knows what He's doing inside of us - in the 'inner man' - changing and molding, strengthening and building endurance and humility and yes, love. He knows how best to get that beautiful reflection of Himself to glow and shine, to sparkle and light up the world we've each been called to touch with the LOVE and gospel of Yeshua/Jesus Christ.  He alone knows how to polish us to His standard as we do the things that are set before us every single day.  He knows how to break down the pride in you and me as we surrender our hearts, our words and our bodies to Him for His purposes. 

He knows how to tear down the things inside of us that keep us stuck. He does it as we continue to move forward in our relationship with Him.  He does it as we yield our own wills and acknowledge His Lordship in every area of our lives.  He fashions new places inside of us as we turn our cares over to Him.  He builds up the waste places inside of us as we fully lean on Him and say 'yes' to His direction, even when we can't fully understand why He is leading us in the ways we find ourselves going.

And we do it, Beloved, because He is always good, always right and always GOD. We're here for Him and for His will for each one of us.  We're not here for ourselves.  He's showing us that, if we are paying attention.  He's got all of the provision we need to do what we've been called to do.  He's holding everything in His very wise and very tender hands. He's leading when we can't see and guiding when we can't hear or feel.  Ours is to simply move forward and do the thing we know to do each day - making ourselves fully available to whatever He may whisper into our beings - letting go of the reins and acknowledging that He has full sway over us because He is Who He says He is and we are His creation.  We are blessed to be in existence because of the goodness, the Love and the Beauty of the GOD we cannot see but Whose eye never loses sight of His children and Whose heart never loses hope for His plans for us as we continue to pursue Him.  His words won't fail.  His plans for you and me were established before the foundation of this world.  And no matter how hard you and I try, we could never come up with something as glorious and perfect as His plans and what He has in store for us.

So whatever that 'thing' is you've been waiting to see, whatever that dream or desire or call...  Go ahead and praise Him for what He's doing in, to and through you all of the time.  Go ahead and acknowledge for all the world to hear just how GOOD and PURE and HOLY and GLORIOUS and WISE He is! He is the ONE TRUE GOD, THE ALL-RULER, ALL PURE, ETERNAL and FAITHFUL CREATOR of you and me.

Just keep moving forward, Beloved.  Keep listening for His voice, watching for His footsteps in front of you and thanking Him for caring so much that He would choose to use you for His glory in the smallest or greatest or everyday simple things. Encourage yourself in the LORD. He is truly good and truly GOD.

Sunday, October 1, 2017

A 40 Year Grudge

A few years ago, we learned that a friend of ours had cancer.  She was in her eighties and everyone at the church we attended back then loved her and her husband immensely.  They were a wonderful, gentle couple and it was a blessing to have known them.

Everyone in the church was praying for this sweet woman.  For the sake of this testimony, I will call her Esther.  She and her husband had been missionaries for many years in a country in South America, and as far as anyone knew, everything else in their lives was in order.

The Lord kept telling me that Esther needed to forgive.  I didn’t know what He was talking about, but He certainly did. 

One day several members of my family went with another couple to visit Esther.  Her husband was away from home that day, so we sat with her for a while and chatted.  We were all there to pray for God to heal her and deliver her from cancer that had attacked her body.  Finally, someone suggested we go ahead and pray. 

The Lord’s Spirit kept prompting me to tell Esther that she needed to forgive someone.  He impressed upon me that it was critical for her to let go of the unforgiveness before we even prayed.

I used to feel a little intimidated by elderly people.  It’s probably because I figured they knew so much more than I did about life – particularly if they were Christians.  Well, I certainly felt uncomfortable asking Esther if there was someone she needed to forgive, but it had to be done. 

I asked her, “Is there someone in your life you haven’t forgiven?”

She looked at me for a moment before answering.  “Yes,” she said.  “There is a man who molested my children when we were in South America.  They were very young at the time, and I have never forgiven him for it.  He was in the ministry with us.  And I will never forgive him for what he did.”

The room got very quiet.  Here was a beautiful and gracious elderly woman who had served the Lord for years, carrying a burden of anger and resentment against someone from forty years in the past.  She was in definite need of repentance, and God was asking her to forgive.  It was a terribly hard thing for her to do.
We reasoned together for a while that day.  She finally softened and said that she would forgive him. 

We all gathered around her and prayed.  She was standing in the middle of the living room, and during the prayer, the Lord touched her in such a way that she literally fell back and lay on the floor.  (Someone caught her, of course!)  Her countenance changed, and she was even more beautiful than before.

No one knew what she had been carrying for so many years.  No one except the Lord
and He wanted her to be with Him in His kingdom in a few days.  According to His own words, it would not have been possible unless she forgave that man.  Jesus said if we do not forgive others for their sins against us, then our Father in heaven will not forgive our sins.  Here is what it says in Matthew 6:14, 15,

“For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”

This was an important moment in Esther’s life.  She had done wonderful things for the kingdom of God, but this was important enough that the Lord made a point of making sure she had another opportunity placed before her to extend mercy and forgive.

I’ve spoken with people who don’t think it really matters if they forgive others – people who believe the Lord understands why they are withholding forgiveness and that He will still let them into His kingdom.  Well, Esther served the Lord for many years in the mission field, and He still required it of her.  Some people would even say she was justified in refusing to forgive him, but they would be wrong.

Ask the Lord to tell you if there is someone you need to forgive.  You may already know, but just to be sure that you do, go ahead and ask Him.  Wait on His Spirit, because if you will be very still, He will let you know.  If He brings someone to your mind, forgive that person.  It’s not impossible to do.  It would be horrible to stand before the Lord one day and find out that you could not live with Him in eternity because of something someone else did – right or wrong – that you were unable to forgive.  Your salvation depends on it.  Those are Jesus’ words.  We cannot enter the kingdom of heaven if God doesn't forgive us.

Esther needed healing in her spirit and she received it when she forgave.  Just a couple of days later as she lay on her bed listening to her daughter sing hymns, she peacefully went home to be with Jesus.

Come on, you can do it! 

“Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of His saints.”
Psalm 116:15


Sunday, June 18, 2017

God Seasons...

My Father,

My heart and mind are so full of so many things today.  The best place to start, though, is to say that you are Holy and I want your kingdom to come and your will to be done on this earth, as it is where you are in heaven.  The day is almost gone, and yet I still pray that you will give us our daily bread and forgive our sins as we forgive the people who have sinned against us.  Please keep us out of temptation and deliver us from the plans of the evil one, Father.  Everything belongs to you!  That is comforting to know, Lord.  There is nothing that escapes your notice nor your power.  It is all yours, and you will do with it as seems fit to you.  Thank you for that!  I pray that you will have your way in all of your people, Lord.  Be glorified in every wonderful way you will through us.

Thank you for the seasons you set before us.  You know I'm talking about the seasons of laboring, growth, maturing, trials, struggles, resting, and joy. There are so many others that my mind can't comprehend, but I know you had planned them all before we were even born.  Thank you, Lord.  It helps to know that most especially during the times that are hard to endure.  Sometimes when I am feeling the weight of battle, I need the reminder you give me through Holy Spirit.  You're faithful to tell me that you are at work in me, refining, strengthening, and developing things in me that are necessary for my walk and my healing. 

 Sometimes, like today, you shore me up with the reminder that decades-old wounds need healing and you are at work bringing that healing to pass.  Father, during those times of your great mercy you show me the effects of my sin in the lives of others.  Thank you for all of these things, Lord.  In your amazing love, you do the work of humility with each new revelation.  I am astounded by your patience and kindness, Father.  You wait for years sometimes, so that I can endure the revelation of my sin and its effects on others as well as on me. 

 Some of the things you've unveiled would have crushed me or overwhelmed me so much that I couldn't have withstood the knowledge of what I'd done without giving up and turning away in guilt and shame. You knew that was the case, so you protected me from seeing it all at once.  Your grace is beautiful, Father.  Thank you for being so gracious to me.

 I remember the panic attacks and how you said it was because of all of the trauma I'd been through in my lifetime and that you were bringing up things slowly so as not to let the remembrance of them destroy me.   I had blocked so much of my life out of my memory because it was too hard for me to recall as you told me long ago.  Thank you once again for your protection over my life.  I wasted so much of it, Father.  Help me use your wisdom during the time I  have remaining on earth!

You said in your word that you would take our hearts of stone and give us hearts of flesh.  How painful and yet how beautiful it is, Father!   Thank you for continuing to love us during this process of changing us.  Thank you for your love, my glorious GOD! Thank you for your goodness to us.

Holy, please help us remember that the work in us is ongoing! Remind us when the enemy tells us what failures we are, or when we feel tempted to criticize other believers who are struggling in some area of their lives that we have perhaps overcome in ours.  Help us keep our opinions and thoughts to ourselves about others and rather show mercy and patience, and grace just as you do for us.  Help us keep a watch over our tongues and only speak life and blessings over others.  

Teach us what we need to know about the power of our words and how important it is for us to be merciful!  You showed me again in James 2:13 that the person who doesn't show mercy to others will be judged without mercy, and that mercy exults over judgment.  I want to be shown mercy, Father!  I want to be merciful to others as well.  My prayer is for the whole body of Christ to come away from the critical and judgmental mindsets and to give with liberty the gift of mercy to one another.  Help us, Father. Help us see with your eyes.  Change our hearts of stone to become hearts of flesh!

Thank you for being my Father.  I love you so much.  Let your words come alive in all of your children.  Wake us from our sleepy ways and be all you desire in us.  In Yeshua's most glorious name I will forever remain your 'My Victory.'  


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